Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Ok

Ok so maybe you guys are right about what i posted. Maybe it is a little to much on the seedy side, but i mean i do want the girl of my dreams to be attractive. Is that really so wrong? I', not taking the post down but i am recreating a new vision blog on love. Keep your eyes open form that.

There's a song by Radiohead that i can't get outta mine. It's called "High and Dry" yoyu guys should check it out. I think it has meaning for me.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Confronted

I wrote a blog a few days ago on what i called a vision blog. I wrote out in somewhat detail what i would like, or what i want in a partner. And to my surprise it hasn't been well received. Some say that it's very superficial only glimpsing the surface of what people (guys) should want in a woman. Maybe it is hell it is. And so what is it is. Why are people so concerned with the surface or rather concerned with my being concerned with the surface. I was told by a friend that if they had created a vision blog they'd put pictures of iconic leaders of the world. But really give me a fucking break. A vision blog is about what you want not what you believe you should want. It's not about what looks good to other people, it's about what make your heart melt. So judge me all you want. Accuse me of being like every other guy, the truth is i am. I have a penis and it grows and gets excited for a beautiful female form. I am a guy and i do not apologize for it. But there is a difference in me though. Most guys don't believe beauty and brains, and heart can come in one divine human being. I on the other hand do. I can have it all, i want it all, and i choose it all. So if you don't like it tough in the end i answer to myself and God. The vision blog stays.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Joy and Misery

It's a cold war and the kids are playing games of blood and dishonor. The eve of tomorrow sets and the sun rests for the day. We see ourselves burning from being cold with no one holding us. I look out into the sea of people swimming and drowning peacefully. I yell out and ask God come and save, but nothing happens. We were born, we are here, we care for things, and nothing for people. We share souls of misery and hold joy to ourselves, so selfishly we are despicable. I wish i had a light to see true faces. They are all hidden behind a mask of "I'm OK". But nothing is and will ever be until we share our joy and not our misery.

Poem by
Ken O


The thing is...

The thing is.......life has a very funny way of showing or rather playing it's cards. I imagine that life is a player in a poker game with myself on the other side. It's Vegas maybe or less glam side Atlantic City. The dealer deals we get out cards and the game is on. Who wins really? I guess in the end life does, and we lose. But ultimately isn't the fun of playing the game....actually playing the game? Isn't it all just one big gamble? And when our hand is down we say well what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas right? Wrong, it follows us through it all. The bad hands, the cheats, even the wins. I've never really played poker, not much of a gambler i guess. Thing is i know enough of the game to get by, but never enough to truly enjoy the ride. Thus is the story of my life enough to keep my head above water, but never enough to truly swim. So if the waters turn and the winds change and the sea gets to rumbling chances are I'll drown knowing just enough to get by.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Vision Board

This is a little description of what a vision board is.

Vision Blog part 1: Women/Love












It's about to be 2am and i just had what i believe to be an inspired thought. I have an experiment i wanna try. I bet a lot of you out their in blog world have heard or read something on the secret. A.K.A The law of attraction that basically states that what you focus your energies and thoughts on is what you get in return. A man who speaks and things on wealth gets wealth, conversely a man who speaks and things on dept gets just that. Well I've known about this secret for awhile and i do believe that what so a man thinket so is he. What i haven't done is actively use this method in my life. I sort of have been waiting till I'm ready to really receive before i put it all in practice. So here i am putting the secret to the test.
One of the practices in applying the secret in to create a "Vision Board". I'll create another blog that details what a "vision board" is but for these purposes i will just say it's a focus point in which you focus you creative energies into having the Universe bring you the things you want in your life.
I am taking it one step further by creating as "Vision Blog". For the next 30 or so days i will be posting pictures, videos, and stories of things i love and or want in my life. Things that make me feel good and appreciative of my life. And in turn the Universe will bring these good this to me.
Today I'm starting off with a "Vision Blog" about what i want most love. I love women all of them. I love the way they smell, they way the walk, the looks they give when they like you. I love everything about women. But sadly i don't have a special woman in my life today. So i thought why no make a list of things i want in an ideal mate, and post picture of beautiful women that fit the look i want. Through this i hope to attract this woman into my life. We shall see.
The list
Dark soulful eyes.
Big hair (i.e: long, curly Afro, full raven color).
Thick shapely body.
Full breast.
Perfect taut ass.
Creative.
Loving.
Caring.
Smart.
Poetic word.
Seeker of Knowledge.
Leader.
Warrior.
Motherly.
Earth goddess.
Interested in the abstract.
A dancer of hearts.
Wild.
Free flowing.
Like water.
Still.
A vision.
A visionary.
Between 5'3" and 5' 9".
Black
White (Italian, Greek, exotic looking).
Latin
Indian.
Asian.
Mine.

That's my list wish me luck.....

What's your type/what are you attacted to?

I had a conversation with a girl in class the other day that was odd. She told me she wasn't attracted to black people guys or girls. And really it threw me a little that an 18 year old girl in Philly wasn't in some way attracted to any black person in the world (myself included). I tried explaining to her that attraction is based on perspective and perspective is based on prejudice but she didn't get it. Really though if your not at attracted to a RACE of people then you are prejudice. DEAL WITH IT!!

People on the train.

People on the train always look sad to me, and i wonder if it's sadness or the social norm to always look super serious in public. I wonder?.....

About last night

I worked last night and those of you who read this and do not know me I work in retail (shameless plug) H&M. Last night have had the honor of closing, but due to the economic times we ended up leaving early. My buddy Sean came up to meet me so we could get a few drinks. Walked down to old city to hit up this bar Sugar Mom’s (I live in Philadelphia). By the way it’s an Awesome bar.
He’d just broken up with a girl he was see and well was pretty sad about the whole thing. So as a good friend I went into the whole requisite ex girlfriend bashing we as men are obligated to do. We crossed the whole gambit from she’s not that hot, to best way to get over and ex is to get on top of a future ex. None of it worked well not really. We get to Sugar Mom’s and well it pretty typical of a Friday night. It’s packed mostly guys but a few cute girls around. He gets a drink while I check out the scene. I’ve been on this whole kick lately of trying to develop my game with the ladies. I’ve been working on opening girls, charming, and ultimately closing (I.e. fucking). Last night in order to cheer my buddy up I decided I’d work my so called magic and see what’s good. Well long story short her bails and leaves me alone talking to the beautiful women with a big curly afro. She’s got that bohemian vibe and she’s nice. I talk to her and her friend and end up having a great time just talking. I realize that game is really all about honesty and openness. I didn’t fuck either of them in fact the one I liked was married with two kids, but I learned from them. Part of being and attractive guy is being of an attractive mind. Being open positive and inviting. I wasn’t really expecting anything I was open to whatever happen. I just wish my buddy was around to see that everyone wants to be connected.

Love

There is no effort in love, only in it's expression. After that love just comes.